This day can't move fast enough. Usually I do not get affected by mother's day posts or pictures but this year ugh...I want to rip my heart out just so I don't feel it ache. I've been tagged in 2 different posts by women I went to Junior High with and then a woman from High School wished me a HMD on instagram and then took it back because she claimed it was the wrong person. This was after I politely said I am not a mommy yet followed by a sad face. Either way I feel like I am suffering today.
To follow that, a bunch of BFP pictures keep popping up in my TTC groups on FB. Who's posting ultrasound images, who's getting BFP, who's entering another trimester. I just don't have the heart to deal with it today. Any other day I would be fine. But its something about knowing that I thought I would have been a mom come this years Mother's Day. Last year I thought for sure our sweet pea would be here by now. All these emotions are swirling around inside me and I just wish they would stop. Not to mention my hormones are thrown of again. AF is about a week late and still no signs shes on her way. All tests are BFN. I feel so defeated. I try so hard to not think about all this stuff on a daily basis but then it happens and it puts me in the biggest funky mood. I just want this day to be over. Ask me how I feel about this day, next year.
Baby Dust
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To follow that, a bunch of BFP pictures keep popping up in my TTC groups on FB. Who's posting ultrasound images, who's getting BFP, who's entering another trimester. I just don't have the heart to deal with it today. Any other day I would be fine. But its something about knowing that I thought I would have been a mom come this years Mother's Day. Last year I thought for sure our sweet pea would be here by now. All these emotions are swirling around inside me and I just wish they would stop. Not to mention my hormones are thrown of again. AF is about a week late and still no signs shes on her way. All tests are BFN. I feel so defeated. I try so hard to not think about all this stuff on a daily basis but then it happens and it puts me in the biggest funky mood. I just want this day to be over. Ask me how I feel about this day, next year.
Baby Dust
XoXo
A