Yesterday was officially the day we made 5 years TTC. I didn't put all that much thought into it, to be honest. I remembered it early on in the day and for the remainder I just went on living like any other day. I'm happy about that. I could have cried and sulked and been a big blubbering idiot, but instead I just forgot about it. I wish it were always that simple.
Instead, I think it hit me more today. I saw things baby related and my mother made comments pertaining to baby stuff and it just made me think about my new apartment. That may sound odd but I say that it made me think of my apt because we have a spare small bedroom that would make an adorable nursery. Every time I walk into that room I just imagine a crib, walls painted of nightmare before christmas (my baby theme and favorite movie), and a little tiny being crying for my attention. In fact, I am sitting in this room as we speak. Right now its my work space. But I would gladly give it up.
I guess in time I will get what I want most. I just have to stay positive and focus on the amazing this that is child making. I won't give up. And I have faith that it will happen for me…eventually.
Baby Dust
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Instead, I think it hit me more today. I saw things baby related and my mother made comments pertaining to baby stuff and it just made me think about my new apartment. That may sound odd but I say that it made me think of my apt because we have a spare small bedroom that would make an adorable nursery. Every time I walk into that room I just imagine a crib, walls painted of nightmare before christmas (my baby theme and favorite movie), and a little tiny being crying for my attention. In fact, I am sitting in this room as we speak. Right now its my work space. But I would gladly give it up.
I guess in time I will get what I want most. I just have to stay positive and focus on the amazing this that is child making. I won't give up. And I have faith that it will happen for me…eventually.
Baby Dust
XoXo
A